I want to believe in fairy tales. It's ironic that it took me a long time to actually want to believe in.
When I was young, I hate fairy tales. I love watching cartoons before so of course I do watched those things, but never once occur to me about those happy ever after. Those forever love... those happy ending with your prince charming. I never really thought about those things. I never even actually think about me settling down with a man have kids with him and have a happy ending.
I never believed in those things. I never believe that there's a loyal person out there. I never believed that there's a man out there who wont cheat. My father is a cheater so you can't blame me with that. I never met someone who's you know happily married and doesn't have a history of cheating it's either by their husband or her. Though, of course they are all married because there's no divorce here!
It's funny really how can the Fifty Shades Trilogy makes me wanna believe in happily ever after. That love is possible. That there's this one guy - your soul mate that won't cheat on you. After reading Fifty Shades I've been reading a lot of romance novel and again they makes me wanna believe that it is possible.
Now, I want to believe. I want to hope. Maybe I'll take risk with that... Maybe it's worth a try. Maybe just maybe... I want ti believe that there's someone out there! That there's someone that God made just to be with me. I want to believe in that...
I don't know when will I find that person. I don't know when will God let us meet. But I am willing to wait... I want to believe... And maybe someday I'll just say I just don't believe in that... I want to say that I know...
I never believed in love until I met this guy. Everything about our relationship was perfect. The love he made me feel is something you can only see in movies and read in romantic novels..I shut my world from others and focused on our relationship..but now, we are no longer together because of a series of unfortunate events..im still in the process of moving on and then i found out that everything we had was just a make believe. all his promises were just empty words..i font know how to believe in "true Love" again when the rue love that i thought were all but lies....
ReplyDeleteFirst, I just want to thank you for actually taking time to read it. lol
DeleteI think that it's not right that you shut ur world and focused on ur relationship. For me, it's not healthy. Anyways, I hope that someday you will be able to believe in true love again... I hope that you won't let this kind of circumstance bitters you. I hope that you'll still continue believing. I hope that this won't shut you out from the world. Sometimes when indulge ourselves to the bitterness of the past, we are blocking the future that awaits us. Sometimes, it's been there all along but we're just blinded by the past.
P.S
If its full off lies, then perhaps it's not love? Perhaps it's not a true love? But well, that is only my opinion. We all have our own definitions of love.